Why it is important to enter those hidden, magikal, (un)comfortable places
Old.
Very old.
Secret.
Ancient.
Dusty.
Hidden and yes (un) comfortable!
Over the past few weeks I have traveled into those secret places
those ancient parts of myself that invite, welcome and nurture me deeply.
You know those places...
that doorway
that portal
that secret passage
that when you dare to enter deep growth, deep change,
and a depth of profoundness occurs.
ahhhh,
Change - Growth - Profoundness
It is all a part of life.
Part of the natural ebb and flow of nature.
Some growth happens easily. Quickly.
Other growth is slow, steady, pacing.
Flexibility.
Adaptability.
Change.
Life Patterns
and I in the silence of my inner world, I do stop and wonder
"what does it all really mean to me?"
Are you a naturally flexible and adaptable person? Are you someone who likes the idea of change and easily flows with what is going on? Can you change from one thing to another - job, house, country, friendships, hobbies, rules - with ease? Or are you someone who doesn’t like change at all and is set in your own particular way of living and being in the world?
Or are you someone, like me, who doesn’t mind change as long as there is a gentle transition and a space to breathe out, take stock, a place to gently “climatise” to the new-way?
I know, the option I just suggested is pretty impossible at times. Sometimes change just happens and we have no choice. A lot of the time actually!!!! And what we thought of as true, as normal gets re-evaluated with every breath we take and every step we make.
Sudden death, retrenchment, sickness, life-choices, financial changes, COVID etc - it changes what was “normal” and gives us a new “normal” to live by…and sometimes we don’t like that new normal - because it’s lonely, because it has now placed a mental, emotional, physical, financial burden on our lives; because it has reopened doors we sealed shut; because it takes us off our "safe path" and sends us travelling elsewhere without a compass or map; because it has shaken our self esteem, self worth, self belonging; because it has asked that we do “something else” “be someone else”, find "something else" - it questions our once-thought-as-normal-life.
And that, let’s be honest is scary. It is unpleasant. It is surreal. It is painful. It is too hard. It is .. it is… it is… (Please, let your heart finish the sentence..
what is it for you?
Sometimes though,
these events are like walking into an unknown room in our Hearts Home, a room that you didn’t even know existed until now. And when we walk into it, it at first seems so oppressive, dark, lifeless, heavy, messy and down right uninviting. It smells. It takes our breath away. It makes us double over in pain. It brings all our fears to the surface. It speaks a foreign language and NO IT WAS NOT on the floor plan when we moved in...
and yet
and yet,
maybe it has always been there hidden like magik until now.
and well, it CERTAINLY IS THERE NOW!
and now,
it calls us to enter,
to go inside
to make ourselves "at home".
One of the things I love about the work I do, is walking along side folk who realise that these rooms do have a warm although unlit fire inside; that these rooms, once the heavy velvet curtain can be pushed back can allow the sunshine to stream through; that these rooms have wonderful ancient herbs, sacred lore, soothing tinctures plus archives and archives of deep ancient magik and healing, and old old recipes of nourishment.
Yes, these rooms do need extra time, care, and a deep commitment to fully open and step into with comfort and ease,
ahhh, {a deep breath out}
how worth -while though.
If you need a friend to walk with you as you step over that threshold and understand the nuances of the new room, I have many skills I can offer you.
I would love to help you relight that fire, help clear the dust, pull back those curtains, open those once stuck windows and sit with you as you decide what truly belongs in this now beautiful room.
Sit with you as the uncomfortable.. .becomes COMFORTABLE.
Until we meet where the warming of a new fire is lit,
Blessed Be